The last few weeks I have been feeling "down" if you will. I'm stuck in a rut. I was trying to chalk it up to hormones due to pregnancy, but I had a feeling that hormones weren't the only culprit.
Then she came. She is Christine Caine. Have you ever heard someone speak who captivated you, set a fire in your heart, motivated you to be different, to live up to your full potential, and to get up off of your comfortable hiney and do something with your life? Well, Christine Caine is that person for me.
I was raised in a Christian home, but never fully gave my life to Christ. I accepted that Jesus is the Son of God, but I did not accept the changes that I needed to make in order to follow him.
That all changed on my 22nd birthday. My church was having a special guest speaker, Christine Caine. This was a big deal for our church. First Assembly of God is a small church in Lancaster, and we didn't have a lot of guest speakers, although occasionally we did have well know Christian worship artists visit, like Todd Agnew, and Natalie Grant. Up until that point I had no idea who Christine Caine was. I sporadically went to church, and happened to show up that day. The moment she opened her mouth I was dialed in. Can I say whoa, knock my socks off, shake me to my core, rattle my insides, whoa! I made the choice that day to give it All up. I walked away from a 3 year long relationship with someone I thought I was going to marry. I walked away from everything that hindered me, and held me back from living a life fully devoted to Christ.
Fast forward 3 months later. I knew I had to do something drastic to stay committed to my new found relationship with the Lord. I signed up for an internship in Colorado Springs, CO where I met my husband, and I left for 8 months. I served in the church, ran marathons, hiked mountains, camped, prayed, grew, struggled, laughed and cried. It was one of the best times of my life.
So here we are 9 years later. Christine Caine is coming to Seacoast Church in Mount Pleasant South Carolina, to talk about A 21 - an organization that was formed to abolish slavery in the 21st Century. I didn't know much about A21, but I want to learn more, and I'm beyond jazzed to hear her speak again!. I made sure we were not late to church, we were 30 minutes early to be exact, got a seat in the front row, and excitedly waited for her to speak! My husband thought I was crazy, but I didn't care.
If you are wondering, she did not disappoint. She did it again! Christine Caine spoke to my heart with what she said. Part of what she talked about was not being a mundane Christian by going to church on Sunday's and putting in your 2 hours, then going back home and doing it all over again a week later. We, I, am called to sooo much more! I believe that with all my soul to the core of my being. I'm meant for more. God has spoken that to me over and over again. I'm meant for BIG things. I don't mean that in way's that would glorify me, but in a way that will glorify HIM!
After her message, I was a blubbering mess. Part of it was inspiration, part of that was frustration. Why frustration? I'm bored. Really, really bored. My days consist of, talking to a toddler and a baby, setting a timer and asking if my toddler needs to go potty every 30 minutes. If you are in this stage of life, then you know it can be a double edged sword. It is full of rewards, and quite frankly can be full of disappointment. Do you know how slooow the day goes when you break it up into 30 minute increments! Haha! Life can get stale and mundane. Of course I love my children, I want to be home with them, but I want something more too! Can't I have it all? Women like Christine Caine make me believe that I can. She is a busy mom, and busy wife, but she is DOING IT! She is doing amazing things for the Lord, and I want to do it too.
So where do I go from here? I'm on a spiritual high if you will, but I'm back to the mundane mess that is my life right now. I'm motivated yet, reluctant. Is this another time that I'm inspired, yet I will sit back and do nothing about it? I don't know how many times I have heard an inspiring message and said, "I'm going to do more!" Only to sit back and do absolutely NOTHING. Not this time. This time I will step out and do something about this fire in my heart, although I have no idea what it is that I will do. One thing I do know is that I have to answer the calling that is on my life. Stay tuned.